Loving Me; The New Me

Hi everyone! I just wanted to share my experience because I know some of you out there are feeling exactly how I did when I was in your shoes right after having my daughter. I wanted to talk about my journey as a new mom. I felt very alone at times and to be honest it was really hard.

I want to begin this post by saying that women of ALL sizes are beautiful, and I think everyone is perfect the way they are. I do believe that there is a certain way that everyone feels happiest and healthiest, and this is MY personal experience.

One of the things I typically like about myself is the fact that I can find the good in every situation. When I had my daughter, I was blown away by how much love I felt, and how incredible it was that this tiny person was mine. I had been told that I couldn’t have kids, so I was beyond pleasantly surprised when I found out I was pregnant.

I was always a very tiny person. I ate a lot but stayed a size 2 naturally. I had never tried to lose weight, and was approximately the same size for a decade prior to getting pregnant. While pregnant, I gained 50 lbs… Yes 50. Part of it was honestly due to being pregnant in the summer in FL so I retained a ton of water, and part of it was from a growing baby.

I’m not ashamed to admit that I had a very hard time after giving birth. Between recovering from a c-section (which was my first surgery EVER), taking care of a newborn child and running a business, I didn’t properly care for myself.

I didn’t lose as much weight as I thought I would, and I became very depressed. I didn’t want to see friends, leave the house or do anything social. When I finally did emerge from my house, I was faced with the unfortunate reality that there are trolls on the internet who were very mean about my weight. Cue more self conscious and self loathing thoughts.

Then one day I woke up and thought, why am I allowing other people’s opinions of me change the way that I am living my life? I reminded myself that I had spent nearly a year of my life growing a healthy, happy, amazing human, and the weight gain is a very small price to pay for this incredible blessing that I have been given. I thought about how fortunate I was to be able to have a child as so many women are struggling for the chance to experience these things.

And just like that, I started going out with friends, showing up for events and living life again. So often it’s just about reframing our thoughts and realizing how much we have to be thankful for!

And you know what? I started losing weight! I’m still not back in all of my fabulous pre-baby clothes, but I am getting smaller gradually by making better choices with food and walking with my family in the evenings after dinner.

Only you can decide how you want to look and feel, and anyone who makes you feel otherwise does not deserve a place in your life.

XX,

Amanda





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